Sometimes I experience the sensation of expansiveness. It happens most often just as I am waking up or drifting off. The best thing about this sensation is its optimism. This sensation tells me everything is as it should be. It’s all good.
I can describe it as a pot boiling over. I’m the pot and my spirit is the liquid inside the pot that expands until it can’t be contained and starts to run over the edge. When your kitchen pots are boiling over it’s a sign that you’re doing something wrong. When your spirit wants to expand beyond the container of your body, it’s a sign you are doing everything right. Just let it go.
I’m not sure if the sense of expansiveness is just my spirit letting loose with its bad self, or whether it is my portion of spirit joining with the mother spirit. Whenever it happens I get a glimpse of the person I can be, that I truly am, without the shackles of my ego, fears, values and social mores. The real me is playful, fearless, loving and curious. The real me really loves you. Even if you are being a bit of an asshole, I love you. The real me can see the real you inside of there. The real me knows the real you is being contained in this moment by all of your ego, fears, values and social mores. The real me wants to hug you or wink at you or tease you or give you whatever you need right now to let you know that everything is as it should be. You are all good. The real me trusts that when the situation is reversed, you will also love me. Imagine if the real me and the real you busted out at the same time? How great would that be?
The real me would like to invite the real you out to play.