Don’t mind me, just amusing myself.
I watched a show yesterday and a young woman was talking about her bucket list. I’m well into my 50s and I do not have a bucket list so I started thinking about what I might like to do before my bucket gets kicked or I kick my bucket, however that’s supposed to work.
The first thing that occurred to me was cleaning out my closets. I really enjoy a tidy closet, for one thing, and for another, thanks to Donkey’s post about Swedish Death Cleaning, it also occured to me that this will be one less thing my family has to deal with once I’m gone. So cleaning out closets was added to the top of the list.
But then I thought, gee, do I really want to spend my time cleaning closets before I die? Is that really going to be my big adventure? That’s kind of lame. And while it’s very nice of me (if I do say so) to want to save my family time, I’m not sure they deserve it. I’ve been cleaning up after them for years. YEARS. Plus, if I clean out my closets, I’m going to do it right. I’m going to get one of those portable clothing racks from the Container Store, go through all the items in my closet one by one, and sort them into piles: Keep, donate, mend, throw away. That’s how you sort closets. I know because I watched a YouTube video about it. It’s going to take hours. After I’m gone, however, my family will unsystematically stuff all my things into a giant garbage bag and bring it to Goodwill. It will take about 20 minutes. Who knows, maybe they’ll even hire someone to do it. Why should I waste hours?
I realized I’d need to think bigger. Much bigger.
I want to walk on the Great Wall. I want to attend Burning Man. I want to hold my granddaughter’s daughter. I want to smash grapes in a vineyard in Italy, see the pyramids, run marathons, hang glide, go to a Bruce Springsteen concert, learn a foreign language, build a giant piece of art, go on a road trip with my bestie, write a book, learn to code, become a photographer, visit Glastonbury, grow a garden, live in a loft, make my own clothes, become vegan….
I think I’m going to need a bigger bucket.
And I’m re-thinking the closet situation. I like a tidy closet.